I normally like to take off for a run in the early morning, especially in the summer and fall before it gets too warm and the rattle snakes come out on our little mountain to sun themselves. We live in a neighborhood that has a beautiful but tricky mountain trail, a bit rocky and rolling uphill, but really fun on the way back down. I took off on the late side of the morning- it was already too warm and I didn't have any water with me. I planned to run only 2 or 3 miles. I happened to be listening to music and cruising along when I realized that I was getting really thirsty and according to my running app, was three miles from home. My heart fluttered at the thought that I was already overheated and had to either run or walk home to get the water I needed. Although I seriously considered asking another runner for a sip when he ran by.
I made my way back down the trail walking more than jogging and daydreaming about a big glass of ice water. By the time I made it home, the sun was hot, I was feeling a bit faint and 3 large glasses of water barely quenched my thirst. My kids kept asking if I was alright- as I laid on the floor of my porch for somewhere around 15 minutes. I was fine- but mad at myself for not listening to that voice that said, "it's hot, bring water", or looking at my running app along the way. I went too far for too long in the same direction and had to make my way back. There wasn't another option.
As I laid in the shade recovering, I thought about how long I've wanted to do this thing called ministry. I have loved my sometimes painful and awkward journey as a therapist, mom, wife and worship leader. I am privy to a lot of stories from people walking (or running) for too long in the same direction. They come to therapy because they are ready to turn and try something new. It is my dream to try this new thing-get out there and see where God takes it.
As fearful as I am of judgement for not always knowing my way around this thing called life, I know that I love sharing ways that we can find hope, healing and laughter. Fear has kept me traveling for too long in the other direction. I'm ready to try something new.
Thanks for stopping by and traveling with me. I hope to see you back here for weekly posts! I'm planning to include good info for you- quality articles and links to resources, mental health research and information, family fun ideas, recipes, family stories and guest bloggers.
Take Good Care-
Sarah